Ramadhan alas!

Today, 10 July 2013 , is the first day of fasting month in this year. I am getting so excited for the month each year because during this month we will get to eat delicious feast. The most exciting part about today is that its my mom's birthday.. i didnt wish her yet because i cant reach her right now but i will try to call her again. I pray that this holy month will bring happiness to each of us, to each Muslims in the whole world.. I pray that the war happening in Egypt right now will end soon so that my brothers and sisters that get to feel the blessing of this holy month too. Marhaban Yaa Ramadhan !!! ;)

long time ... miserable life =.=''

oh i have forgoten about this blog until one rainy day i came across to stalk my own profile on fb

 
now its raining
and i am alone in my room
 ~~~~~ALONE~~~~~~~~~~~
I simply love it ,
it means i got my privacy now...
no romate rite now
oh yeah!!!!!!!! alhamdulillah


back to my story............................
well, i now have graduated from the foundation in ASPER..
and doing my degree in Medic in FPSK

Other people asked me why  dont i continue my life ambition being a vet????? =.=''
well, deep inside my heart, here is how i like to answer tht : because Allah gave me this opportunity and chances and  i just hate just giving up my chances to anyone else

i would say that ,my life now is simply miserable...
i got a roomate and she was one of my besties during the foundation
but now i regret having her
i dont hate her, ermm what i just realize that i dont like her
ermmm but why??? whats her fault???
errrmmm i hate because she makes me JEALOUS
I HERE ADMIT I AM JEALOUS AT HER AND I HATE HER MAKING ME FEELING LIKE THAT

oh im an evil girl..
i hope i can be moved out from my current room now
right now on this moment
seriously... im seriously

i still hope for the best for tomorrow
for my future

  

life in 2nd sem 2012

this test is the worst test in my life
i never had gone for a test without prepared like this time
i read all my slides in last minute and do my preparation in the eleventh hour
i felt depressed but my eyes wont cry
its too painful  for me being in such away
i was recjected  from getting mara scholarship
and now im having the worst weeks in my life..
everytime the test end i just wanna lay on the road and let myself being hit by the cars
im crying from the deep of my heart

attribute to christina perri..

the loneliness

my heart cant stop crying when all my frens left me in upm

they are going for scholarships n im left with two choices in my hand

emmm..should i stay at upm or flee to uia??

everyday i ask GOD to give me signs

to help me to make the right decision...

every night i fidgetng in my room alone

thinking about the future..

but i still see my future...

i love upm..

yes i love this place..the college, the food , the lecturers

but ONE THING tht have been urging me to go awy from here

emm my classmates..

they're not talking to me much as they do to others...

n thts make me hurts as i do want people to talk to me..

when i saw my classmates are gathering and laughing together happily..

i was in a corner of the class ..waiting for someone to ask me to talk..

my heart crashed... n i cried because of the loneliness

oh god please help me

oh  LORD, do help me...

im sinking into the darkness..

somebody save me...

a letter to my ex- bestfriend

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But its killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie,
Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.
Cause its tragedy and itll only bring you down,
Now I dont know what to be without you around.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesnt work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Its two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know its not easy,
Easy for me.
Its two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this aint easy,
Easy for me.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.

Ohhh

I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry

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missing

i love this song v much..
it reminds me to home everytime when i listen to it
i miss home v.much..
i cried yesterday night for no reason..
my tears won't stop although i already try
being here alone ...stranded in upm..
sometimes make me feel isolated...
sometimes make me to lost my soul..
coz..there's somebody outside there tht i miss so much...
i miss the smile,i miss the laughter...