life in 2nd sem 2012

this test is the worst test in my life
i never had gone for a test without prepared like this time
i read all my slides in last minute and do my preparation in the eleventh hour
i felt depressed but my eyes wont cry
its too painful  for me being in such away
i was recjected  from getting mara scholarship
and now im having the worst weeks in my life..
everytime the test end i just wanna lay on the road and let myself being hit by the cars
im crying from the deep of my heart

attribute to christina perri..

the loneliness

my heart cant stop crying when all my frens left me in upm

they are going for scholarships n im left with two choices in my hand

emmm..should i stay at upm or flee to uia??

everyday i ask GOD to give me signs

to help me to make the right decision...

every night i fidgetng in my room alone

thinking about the future..

but i still see my future...

i love upm..

yes i love this place..the college, the food , the lecturers

but ONE THING tht have been urging me to go awy from here

emm my classmates..

they're not talking to me much as they do to others...

n thts make me hurts as i do want people to talk to me..

when i saw my classmates are gathering and laughing together happily..

i was in a corner of the class ..waiting for someone to ask me to talk..

my heart crashed... n i cried because of the loneliness

oh god please help me

oh  LORD, do help me...

im sinking into the darkness..

somebody save me...

a letter to my ex- bestfriend

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But its killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie,
Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.
Cause its tragedy and itll only bring you down,
Now I dont know what to be without you around.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesnt work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Its two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know its not easy,
Easy for me.
Its two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this aint easy,
Easy for me.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.

Ohhh

I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry

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missing

i love this song v much..
it reminds me to home everytime when i listen to it
i miss home v.much..
i cried yesterday night for no reason..
my tears won't stop although i already try
being here alone ...stranded in upm..
sometimes make me feel isolated...
sometimes make me to lost my soul..
coz..there's somebody outside there tht i miss so much...
i miss the smile,i miss the laughter...

depression

i'm so depressed right now..
i got a conflict with a friend of mine
a new friend tht i think our friendship is priceless
i hope he/she forgave me my mistakes..
i'm sorry...yes i'm really really sorry..
but i cant speak it out when it comes to tell you when i faced you...
n i'm stressed as muet is just around the corner..
somebody do help me!!!
i got cold feet when is speak in front of others..
i've got a low level of self-esteem...
i'm very tension..

new life in upm

living life in upm is not as hard as we see.but it also not that easy...i love upm..much more than in my old school.here i got many new friends and i also have gain the strength to write in blog..because of my lecture..upm.today we have a test.our first test in upm.....the qustions are quite difficult i think..because i really really hate reading which was hobby i used to love to.i missed home very much as i have not go back for almost 2 months....that is why i kept repeating playing my favourite song by justin bieber, come home to me....whenever i heard to this song i feel that my home is calling at me begging me to came back to it.......

My Intro..

hi.i'm new in this blogging world. i hope that anyone can correct my mistake because i'm not very good in english especially when it comes for writing. i signed myself in blogger to improve my writing skills...
and to express myself to the world!!! wish me luck